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[Oct. 9th, 200706:23 pm] |
I found someone. And he's incredibly amazing. He's so kind and so sweet. He makes me laugh even when I'm seriously upset. What sucks, is that he just went back up to New York. And he asked me to be his girlfriend. So guys... I'M TAKEN BY THIS AMAZING GUY;
We both now that the distance situation is going to be tough, but we know we are going to visit each other as much as possible. He's 18 turning 19 in December, so he's already out of school. And hopefully that would help out a lot on him visiting me a lot as well.
I'm feel so comfortable when it comes to him. And I can honestly say I'm extremely happy. |
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[Aug. 23rd, 200706:29 pm] |
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I wrote this to Allen today. I guess to finalize us being over.
"My Dearest Allie.
I couldn't sleep last night because I know that it's over between us. I'm not bitter anymore, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I'll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I'll be seeing you.
Noah "
I've been crying so hard. He played me. He was with TJ.. his ex girlfriend on the 4th of July & while he was all over her and making out with her, he was texting me at the EXACT SAME TIME and was telling me how much he loves me and how much he wished I was there. He told everyone I was a huge bitch and that I was way over protective (this was while we WERE dating).
I tried so hard to seem perfect for him. The perfect girl who didn't drink and do drugs and party. The perfect girl who had big plans for her life and wanted to have her own house on the country with a big happy family. The perfect girl who's passion was writing and painting. The perfect girl who was absolutely in love with him. I tried so goddamn hard. As I'm writing this, I'm sobbing. I was such an idiot. I was in love with someone who didn't care. Who didn't care about my feelings. If he did, he wouldn't have done half of the things he did. Now I just wish I could just be held by a man who really does care about me. So I could just sob in his arms. I wouldn't have to explain anything. He'd just be there and held me until I fell sleep.
I don't understand what I did wrong.. My spirit has been completely torn apart.
I guess god just put us together to teach us a lesson.
I have no clue..
:'( |
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[Aug. 9th, 200702:07 pm] |
That was on this girls myspace. She's 23, & so far Allen loves spending time with her. & it's actually pretty recent.
I just want him back. Anyone want to help? |
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